Part 2. March Entry

Book Title: Falling Into You by Jasinda Wilder

Favorite scenes in the story..

When Nell jogs and Kyle just follows her lead. Just letting her run and catches her breath until her lungs runs out of air.

When Colton just strums his guitar and Nell just listens to his husky and deep but wonderful voice.

The wonderful times Kyle and Nell had when they became a couple.

Part 1. March Entry

Book Title: Falling Into You by Jasinda Wilder

There are three important things I understood after reading the story. First is that compassion and pity are not the same: pity is looking down on someone, feeling sorry for them and offering nothing; compassion is seeing their pain and offering them understanding. Usually, people get mistaken for giving pity instead of compassion for other people who are lost, completely drowned out of sadness, mourning and longing for someone who can't be with them anymore and loneliness. Second is that, people always say that time can heal everything but it actually can't. Nothing can stop pain, not even time. Even if you try to make yourself busy unto something to forget your grim and hurtful past, it would still continue to go back straight at you over and over, to hurt you, to haunt you in your dreams and still make you miserable. That is why people usually tend to hurt themselves physically through cuts, they think that it's more bearable than being hurt emotionally. For example, you lost someone you love and you found another person. People are scared of loving again for they can't forget their first love. Forgetting is the mind's way of helping people heal, helping them move on but people get stuck of the moment of their loved one's lost. Locked into a cycle with no way out. People need to find a way to break the cycle.

 People need to FEEL and take all the pain. Grieve. Let themselves feel all the anger at the fact that they lost someone they cherish. Feel the loss of someone you love and feel the sadness and longing. Don't stop yourself from hurting emotionally but don't cut and don't drown yourself from drinking. Just sit down and let it rip you apart and get up and keep breathing. One breath and one day at a time. You're not okay but you are still alive, and you will be, not today but someday. It might sound easy, but it's not. It's hard but it's the only way. People don't actually totally let go of their past. It doesn't go away and people don't stop hurting and don;t stop loving. They continue to live and eventually the past gets pushed into the background letting you move on with your life and won't consume you anymore. One day, you'll realize that you're actually okay, that you've already gotten over it with and you're ready to love again. If you want to live, we should not be stuck loving the memory of someone who's gone, you have to try.

I wonder if how would their parents react if they would found out about the relationship of their daughter and sons? I mean, how would a parent feel when both their sons fell in love or actually dated the same girl? I wonder what exactly are the things Colton and Nell have gone through before crossing each other's path? It was not really elaborated well in the story what they have been doing after Kyle died. I wonder how it rips your apart of losing your boyfriend? And I wonder how Nell really felt when she was with Colton. Was it really agonizing? I also wonder if their parents were worried that their child left home. I mean, do they really care for their sons and daughters? 

I actually don't have any experience like having a childhood friend, a best friend and eventually became your lover and almost became your husband and then dying because of an accident and falling in love and ending up with his long lost older brother. It's kinda messed up life, I know, and I'm not even wishing for these things to happen to me. I mean, I couldn't even handle leaving someone of saying proper farewells to my close friends, how much more if it's going to be my boyfriend? Well, I really don't know how to describe how blissful it is to have a boyfriend. I mean, I've been single for the whole 17 years of my existence, I've never been into relationships. And don't you think it's kind of something like deceiving someone when you fell in love with the brother? I mean, isn't it cheating? You fell inlove with the younger brother and fell in love with the older brother? I don't know, it really happens. Maybe it's a shift of fate. Kyle and Nell wasn't really meant for each other. Maybe Kyle's role was just really for experience, to prepare Nell for her future husband.

I think Colton and Nell would really be perfect for each other. They both lost someone they loved. 

They know exactly how each of them feels. They know what they need. So they are destined for each other, to fill in their needs. Also, I figured that Colton is a perfect puzzle to fill in Nell's personal libido.There might be misunderstandings and more struggles they meet on their journey, but I know that they'll make it. They know how to endure pain because of their experiences. And in the end, they would just end up sitting on n\benches and strum the strings of their guitar, singing their souls out, speaking their hearts out, communicating through music. Proclaiming that they've won another fight and they would continue to live stronger together.

Part 2. February Entry

New Book Cover

Part 1. February Entry

Book Title: Jemima J. by Jane Green

I realized that when you found out something fascinatingly new and entertaining, you'll eventually find it addictive and you'll just drown into it later on. Exercising is one of those "something". During my elementary and high school days, I was fond of playing with my friends and cousins, I was fond of swimming and doing outdoor games but it never came to me to have an exercise routine or it never came into me to be an athlete. I just told myself that I'm going to be a famous volleyball player or swimmer someday but it never came to me to push the thought into actions. So I was really horizontally challenged on those days. Although when I first tried using the internet, I got really addicted to it but it never was a hindrance in changing my eating habits, so even if I used the internet until dawn, I never forget to eat "between meals" but not until I entered college. There was a free Taekwondo training in our university's gym so as an enthusiast, I joined the club. The training was really breath-taking. I was scared and hesitant at first, it was really energy-draining, training after class hours and going home late, the first few weeks were really hell, we even had calluses on our soles. But after 6-7 months, I find Taekwondo really fascinating and entertaining plus the fact that I already met friends and got some bonds between them. There were times when our trainers were absent so we did not have any practice, my body felt tingly inside as if it want to move and it craves for sweat and muscle pain. I realized that I got addicted to it. And that was the time I realized that I've loosed weight. People around me kept telling me I've loosed some weight. They said that the first few weeks, people around you would first notice the changes and you'll be the last one to notice it. I believed that though. I never really believed them at first. But when it comes to love, I still don't know how it feels to be liked by someone you liked.

This book can give a whole bunch of hope to every overweight girls out there to reduce and to have a better looking body only if they are just determined enough to achieve so. Not just achieving a healthy and good looking face and body but also hope to gain friends despite being horizontally challenged and lastly is that LOVE comes in all shapes and sizes. Love does not look at your size nor weight but what lies inside you. That everyone can be perfect just the "weigh" they are. And also, it tells us that too much can also kill you. In everything you do, you have to maintain the balance and harmony. An astounding beauty can also be seen by a pure hearted person.

I wonder what would be Jemima's mom reaction would be if she personally sees her daughter? Where is her dad? I've never heard of her dad in the story. I wonder what happened to her flatmates after they found out that Jemima and Ben finally turned into real couples? I bet they would be jealous to death. And I wonder if Gralding will really be happy with Nick? Will she settle with Nick once and for all? Did Diana just let Nick find another girl even though she was already damped by Ben?

I think, common predictions would be like; Jemima will finally visit her Mom and her Mom would really be happy and would show her daughter to the whole world, to her friends.Ben will propose to Jemima and they will have wonderful and good-looking off springs. Jemima would try to find another work or maybe she would turn out to be a superstar or like a model and they would live in Los Angeles California, living their dreams. For Brad, I think he would make up with her chubby secretary and they would get married. But I really hope that her secretary would just lose wait but what can I do if Brad craves for a fat woman? And they would also live a happily ever after.

Part 2. January Entry

A new book cover for Died in Plain Sight